I am not getting down on myself, just stating a fact. Holy crap am I out of shape! I am so glad I really didn't think this stick fighting all the way through in my typical, logical fashion, because as anybody who may read this blog probably could have easily guessed, um, I am not in the ideal shape to be a martial arts student. It would not even be cruel or inaccurate to state that I am in the lowest fitness level of adults my age, having been partially (and completely) immobile for huge chunks of time in the last two years and my prior history as a "mathlete" and bookworm/couch potato really doesn't set me up to be the female, stick-fighting, version of the Karate Kid. I've barely gotten good at dancing in my room for more than thirty minutes. How exactly am I going to be able to study Arnis (Filipino stick fighting)?
The answer. I don't know exactly. I do know I will do it IMPERFECTLY. Having been a total goody two shoes and a very serious, quick-learning student, I get to accept and enjoy the new experience of being a SLOW LEARNER. There, I said it. I, Christy Murphy, will be grateful to be the best student I can be and accept that this may mean that I am not the best student that my teacher ever had. :)
And you know what? I'm actually not caring so much now that I typed that, because I tell you I am VERY grateful to even be in the position to try. So many miracles had to happen just to give me a shot at learning something this new, this challenging and this totally out-of-character for me. I am grateful for every miracle that brought me to this minute.
Today:
New spiritual class started today (now I have two a week - yay) so subbing that for my chapter, journal yes, no dancing, an hour of stick fighting, five glasses of water, two servings of vegetables.
My Gratitude List:
1) The patience of my teacher
2) months of physical therapy and all of my therapists
3) Cool, cool shower
4) Spaghetti for dinner
5) Feeling tired from actual martial arts training-- ME!
6) My former accupuncturist
7) Beautiful curtains in my bedroom
8) meditation CD given to me by a friend
9) All my doctors, specialists and technicians
10) My lawyer who got me the money to pay for it all :)
Now I'm gonna get inspired by Suzette, Adam and Jamie. Bye cyber-friends.
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Way to go! the first time doing anything is hard. it will get easier as time goes on and you get a little bit stronger each day. At least you are getting off you butt and trying! I am sure a lot of people would have simply given up. Never give up! YOu can do it! Attitude is everything.
Is this a weekly class? I am looking forward to and expect progress and can't wait to hear more about this class!
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