Day 12: Back to Basics

I've been thinking about this shred mission and what I've learned.

I've really learned what works for me and what doesn't. I I stated a mission goal above, and I've been working toward it. But I've realized something.

This kind of goal setting thing/affirmation thing I did above, it's not my bag anymore. Somewhere in my head I told myself, this is what I'm SUPPOSED to do. But that's not true. I was just scared to show myself the way I really am is all.

You see when I first set that goal above, I figured that I'd use those particular words, because it would be more tangible and in the spirit of the shred and be like less weird of a goal considering it was sort of weird that a girl with a walker is taking part in a shred mission at all so why have like a weird goal to go with it.

I thought I could set that goal using those words while secretly knowing my true mission was to put some energy and focus on my body and physical health, because that's the area I had been neglecting since my injury. (Heck my whole life except a few recent months)

But that's not what I wrote, and something happened.

My focus subtly switched. I didn't even notice that it became about exactly what I wrote above. In some ways putting energy toward my body and health looks the same as what I've been doing--walking, rehab exercises, and nourishing my body with good food. But when I started staring at my pics and weeping when I couldn't walk a certain distance, I knew I'd gone down the wrong path for me.

When I started this blog and my transformation journey I said I was just gonna focus on gratitude. I'm on a journey of getting away from being in the producing results business and into more of the enjoying the process business. Because it works better FOR ME.

I dig on being grateful for where I am no matter what. I like doing the work that is in front of me and enjoying it.

I've never put much energy toward my body until I came here to the Philippines, and then I lost some of that focus after a three weeks of being bedridden.

But my mission is to enjoy nourishing my body and enjoy the physical movement of my body. This IS what my next 10 weeks and beyond are gonna be about.

I'm sure as a byproduct of this much physical change will manifest. Heck, I lost 25 lbs. that way.

But, I'll enjoy each step cuz that's what I'm all about these days, and I'll being doing that as a service to other people, too, which means that energy will be mulitplied.

I think Lynda wrote, and I'm paraphrasing, that she was happy that this is what the Universe doled out next for her.

Man, I sure am, too.